I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

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No work for me today, so it's just the usual rendezvous with my computer. The skies are grey and it's been looking like it's gonna rain since 3 hours ago...that sort of annoying weather that basically pisses me off. Maybe it's the flu, maybe it's PMS, because I've been feeling rather down since I woke up this morning. No, seriously, I haven't joined the emo tribe (cues dramatic eyeball-rolling; to this generation's 'emo kids': PUT A SOCK IN IT.), and this isn't one of those 'nobody loves me, I feel so lost and alone...don't know why I'm not in a good mood -pout-' laments (more eyeball acrobatics..). I'm just sick of all this waiting for Uni application results thing, sick of being ill, sick of feeling like I've been kicked into an open sea without a life buoy. I hate feeling like this, because I know my priorities (YES I DO) and I'm aware that if this is the kind of attitude I'm going to have, I am so, so screwed for next few years.

Aaaaaaaaaargh!

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I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

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Spoke to Marc online for awhile, regarding some new revelations I've had. Apparently I'm now in 100 percent "Guy Mode", haha! Well, I guess that's the proper term to describe emotional irresponsibility and reckless behaviour. Hur. Well, much better than putting in so much and getting nothing but disappointed in the end --"it's not what you get in return that matters"? I'm not THAT altruistic hun, so sue me.

I hate this nonsense.

Bleughh.