Conversations with melonboy have influenced my decision to write this post. I guess I'm still kinda baffled by this guy, even after about 5 months of knowing him. To melonhead: You have baffled even The wisest, more wonderful strawberry. Any thoughts? =p

I guess it all started with Saturday, when he came to the play with her. Before that, I had nothing but utter disdain for such a girl, whom I hypothesized was toying with his feelings, whom i initially decided to regard with a cold, bitchy stare. Until I met her.

Miche: eh..is that his gf..
Me: SHIT! I know that girl!

Well...turns out that she's my friend frm choir in sec 1, when I was still in Chung Cheng High (Main), and she's definitely NOT the sort who will hurt people deliberately..spoke to her awhile, heard her side of the story. I don't know..perhaps it was too much for me. I mean, TWO very emotionally responsible individuals. Okay wait, that's 'Emo R.',a characteristic that's definitely missing in me, which I shall irresponsibly blame on some genetic defect.

I guess it's always been like this for me? Maybe it's 'cos I'm very pragmatic about such things. Love? Hah. No more fairytales for me... sometimes people are in a relationship NOT because they're in love. They may like each other..but it does not mean that they are IN LOVE, and want to spend the rest of their lives together in eternity. I guess I have myself to blame for It.It's...UGH. It's...baffling. yes, once again, the great strawberry is baffled. ARGH. Complex emotions are so difficult to handle! Maybe it's retribution for being for callous towards the feelings of other people?

Why am I even bothered. Hah. I'm just irked when people are as Emotionally Irresponsible as I am... the practical part of me is still very much in control okay...I like the no-strings-attached, obligation-free feeling....yet somehow I feel that It's going nowhere.

I have issues. ARGH.